not working fine..

Everything seems like not working fine..

Yes, not fine. Not a good feeling.. feel bored... very dull....

I'm,

- Not manage to go a place I want to go....this is the most sad things. The place you want to go is not the place I want to go the most. Others might feel very happy, but I'm not. Maybe you have fulfill their dreams, not mine. Kinda sad.

Already a old lady. Not sure when you will fulfill my dream. Not dare to say is 'our' dream already.... Pretty sure that you are not really want to go.. Else you will busy looking for cheapest hotel OR flight... Sad.. Actually I can go anytime with my friend, just that I'm do not wish to do so.. I'm so sad, so nervous especially when they asking me whether want to go with them or not? Or telling me they will go HK soon..... I know you will not joint, then what-for for me to go with them without you?

If I din joint, then when will I go HK? This is my Year 2009 plan and now already Year 2010. Want to make it become Year 2020?????

- Not manage to buy my dream house.

Due to cost managing, no more extra money for me to buy high cost property at this moment. I don't like travel long hours to reach my working place. I really don't like it! Why I will plan to buy house? Not just because of my self, but because of you as well. Travel an hours from home to office is really tired. Heart pain to see you travel like this. It take times and costly as well. I know you are not healthy as others. You need to have enough sleep, well rest and have balance diet.

- Not manage to achieve my dream as Accountant

Yes, my dream is to be accountant. That's why I taking ACCA. Yes, I has passed all the ACCA paper. But now just works as xxxxx in other field, salary as little as engineer or maybe worst than it... Din feel proud with my career at all. Cos this is not I want. When growing old and old, is very hard for a person make a decision to correct move. As there is tonnes of worried, tonnes of burden . It has been burden me quite sometimes.. But who knows?

No worries, just want to write it out, so that I can brief smoothly .. :)

cheers J