I feel...

I'm not able to concentrate on my work at all...

I feel hurt.. I feel pain....I feel like want to go back...I don't know why it become like that.

You no longer tolerate with me..

My heart starting pain when I'm thinking of you.. It all happen so sudden.

I can't accept it!

我的心好疼..

我的心好疼..

我想已复原的伤口再次复发... 伤口裂了..

脑子里有点空白, 眼睛张不开似的;脸,也湿了...有点力不从心, 有点心疲力尽的感觉...

有点刺伤的, 你不能忍受我反复的心情..
有点刀割的, 你已开始嫌弃..

更淌血的是, 我们才开始自己的生活...

你知道你是我唯一可诉苦, 撒娇,又真心面对的吗? 或许你是温室里的小花, 不受风吹雨打... 我可不是....

事业上的压力, 生活上的压力, 外来的压力.... 有多大你知道吗?

对你撒娇, 挑皮, 任性, 霸道... 能减轻我的压力, 能让我感受到你为我的付出, 对我的疼爱.. 让我觉得, 就算天塌下来都有你在, 那..你知道吗?

可悲的是, 你数落出我对你的坏而感受不到我对你的好.....

对你的爱与呵护总不胜于其他..

你对我的批评, 突然让我想起了她. 我没想多了, 这是正常的反应.. 是无意间连想到她.. 此刻让我与她做了个比较....

从外表看起来较任性的她, 看来真的比我好多了.. 至少你还可以忍受她那么久... 哈哈..

我好伤心.. 非常伤心..

Trap

A bit... depressed..moodless

I know I should ignore someone who trying to destroy everything!

I know I should not ask u more than that.. BUT, sometimes I really wish to know....

I should trust u instead of reading what she wrote those bullshit in her blog....

I love u more than that... more n more....

Although everyone told me that, the main purpose is to destroy the relationship between u n someone! This is a trap!!! How stupid am I that willing to go in?

This is so call nature of gal!

Oh... Dono

He makes me confused only...

Y?

The way he talk in chat room totally can't match with his personality :S Suddenly feel like, is it I'm talking to the right person??? Why there is such huge different?

I don't know....

Everyone keep on promoting him.. saying how good is he... :s But in real, is he? Do no.. Haven't find out.. haha....Should be not bad, I think...

God bless u, moon.

Disneyland

Bad Bad.... my col remind me it again...

Hai.. my HK trip.. Do no when will it be?

Hope to go there since few years past.. Finally my best fren agree to go with me. Both of us plan to go there ourself, din decide to joint those tour....

A bit worried, cos no other gay joint us.. Just 2 little gals... I think should be fine...

Plan to stay d hotel located inside the Disneyland.. Ya, it is very very expensive... But, I just wish to stay there 1 night.. Its very nice scene...

How good if can go with the right one :P

kaka....

high possibility in my dream..

Take it easy man..

WHAT KEEPS A RELATIONSHIP STRONG IS:

WHAT KEEPS A RELATIONSHIP STRONG IS:

1. TRUST

2. COMMUNICATION

3. INTIMACY

4. A SENSE OF HUMOR

5. SHARING TASKS

6. DAILY EXCHANGES (meal, shared activity, hug, call, touch, notes,etc.)

7. SHARING COMMON GOALS AND INTERESTS

8. GIVING EACH OTHER SPACE TO GROW WITHOUT FEELING INSECURE

9. GIVING EACH OTHER A SENSE OF BELONGING AND ASSURANCES OF COMMITMENT

10. CONCERN AND CARE FOR YOUR LOVER IN YOUR OWN WAYS.

Tired

Phew.. very tired..

This few weeks being travel from PG to KL. It was very tiring. But have fun as well. Especially when we have UBS conference at Bukit Tinggi. Its really a very nice and relaxing place.

I hope to go there once again with my love one :P

There is a restaurant which more on oversea style... can enjoy 'candle night dinner' there.. I believe it quite expensive.. It is worth to pay for it to enjoy the romantic environment there.. hihi... So, you all must go with the love one :P

Sick..

Sick for few days after back from KL...

sorethroat.. fever.. Opss.. but not H1N1.. keke.. thanks god :P

Recently we have our own panel clinic.. The clinic that I used to go is one of it as well.. Really can't tahan on that day.. Work until 2something.. i think.... headache.. sneezing...cough.....very toucher... feel like wana faint...

My colleague keep on chasing me to see doctor.. Yes, final action.. go to see doctor..

He is the worst one.. Why I say so?????? When I reach there, I saw a guy.. Indian guy siting in front of computer.. watching YouTube.. fine.. I don't know he is the doctor...

As that time there is no patient.. So I'm the first one.. When I enter the room.. Opss.. The Indian who watching YouTube is a doctor.. ok...

He just ask me :"What happen to u? Got fever?. So I just tell him, : Yes, I'm getting flu.. headache.... Haha.. without further 'delay'.. he said, I will give you panadol, and flu medicine, ok.. thats all'.. Then he rush to another room to continue the movie.. WT*....

Such irresponsible doctor.. Not even explain to me the sickness.. faint...

baka.. really shit...

Popular ~ ~

Whats a boring day...

I went to Popular (book store) at Queens Bay Mall.. Looking for some interested book.. Such as management related, leadership and so on~

Saw a book which is name "Barack Obama", ermm... sound interested.... think and think again.. Finally made up the decision to buy this book.. hihi.. at least by reading it can fit my FREE time..I won't be so boring.. most of my friend was busy with 'dating'... only me.. so lonely... sob sob

It is only at RM39.90. Too bad that I don't have the Popular membership else I can get further 10% discount..

Since that I'm want to be saver now.. "shopping" has been removed from my current plan... What can I do is online during my free time.. reading.. playing with my doggie..

Is boring and lonely... Mr.Right, when you want to secure me from the darkness of lonely?

H@ppy Birthday to U

Happy Birthday to U, my dear fren...

Wish you all d best... and all ur dream will come true.

I'm sad that I'm not the selected one. I was keep asking my self the reason. Until I know the word 'fate'...

No matter how, I will always there...

Hope u will happy forever...

Single's story ~ ~

Don't know is good or bad ~ ~

Yes, I'm still single.. I never feel anything wrong with my status... As most of my friends are single.. We really enjoy our life much...

Until a day, my parents indirectly asked me to find someone who able to take care of me in my future life :s (actually I'm able to take care myself..) and colleague keep on asking me to find a Mr.Right... sob sob.. Do you think you want it, then it will be appeared??? Magic mer

I'm start thinking about this problem.... Being single or married is it so important in my life? Must I find someone to take care of me?? How if the one betray me and let me alone after married?? I think it was too late for me to regret right?

To be optimistic.... may be I'm able to find my Mr. Right who will take care and love me forever.... But, in this world... Is 'he' exist??? I don't know? How to justify is he? I don't know and don't have any idea....

I have been betray by my love one.. It really hurt.. It like thousand of noodles stuck into my heart.. I really can feel my heart is pain... very painful.. Like can't breath at all.. Feel like wanna die... Din have appetite to eat.. Just want to stay alone.. Want to know why he betray me!! I want to know the reason... BUT, I never get it...

and I lost everything.... It is nightmare for me.. I can't forget the pain... Its like a Shadow who follow me forever.....

It very hard for me to find a guy.. or to trust a guy.....

I cant tell my parent about that.. I don't want them worried about me... As in front of them, I'm a very tough gal .....

Thanks for my friends who hold my hand and walk through the hard time with me... I do hope that there is Mr.Right in my life time....

Make Up course III

Ember, today is my last class for Make Up course...

Today learns about ~ ~ eyes shadow again lo :P

Yeah, how to color 3 eyes shadow on your sparkling eyes?

We have tried a lots of color....

Firstly, we tried green.. I have bought green color eye shadows at SunShine when there is 30% discount on all Maybeline product..hihi.. just thirty something.. got series of green color.. from shimmy white, light green to dark green. The tone really nice :P

Second, we tried the Majolica's eye shadow.. where it looks like gold color... which is more suitable on dinner...

Both color of eye shadows only can match with brown color lipstick and blusher....

Sad.. need to buy brown color lipstick again....

I just know that we can use lipglos together with lipstick.... How to apply ler???

There is a way....

- Must have "lip blush"
- Apply lip glos first (can be pink, orange.. etc.. *** as d lipgloss's color will only made our lips look shinny, it won affect d color of lips)
- Use your "lip blush" get some color from your lipstick.. apply on middle of your upper lips.. then follow by bottom lips...

You will see that there is color (lipstick color) on the middle of your lips... d rest is with shinny lipgloss.. which look much more special...

You may have a try :P

My teacher. Sharon.. Offer us a additional class somemore.. How good she is :P Thank U so much much....

Make Up course II

yeah...

Another class to go..

This time we are learning how to apply eyeshadow ...

I like eyeshadow the most... before attending this class, i just simply apply it, provided that can see the color will do.. kekeke

After the class, just know that the steps to put the color.

First of all, need to put eye base before can put those color.

After that, apply light color first.....

If you would like your eyes look 'attractively', you might consider put dark color.. keke.. but don't apply it till like panda eyes wor.. become negative effect.. wakaka

The last lesson, we wil be learn how to apply 3 eyeshadow to made our eyes bigger, attractive.. keke

Mother's day

I love u mum...

Thanks for everything.....

Dinner is ready there while I back from work.... No need to sleep with hungry stomach. keke

Just need to tell you what I wish to eat for lunch o dinner.. Then the next day those food will be 'appear'... You just like the Aladdin's magic lamp... Fulfill all my wishes... "I love U! I love U!

You have help me to wash all the dirty clothes (from in to out) before I wash it .. "shy shy"

I know you are very tired after back from market... But you still insist prepare dinner for us.. Even during weekend.. We want to treat you dinner outside but you refused.. I understand that you want us to save money as now economy hard time.. I know you wish us to buy a house.. YES, I know that.. Give me sometime mum.. I will do it!

I know you wish us to have a partner who able to take care of us, love us.. YES, I know. Although all the while me and sister will 'run away' while you mention about this topic.. YES, we did put your word in our mind and heart.. Just that we need time to find Mr.Right. But no matter how, we know how to take care ourself...No worries.. We big big d :P

Sometime I'm a bit naughty... (sometime only not all the while).. Make you angry.. But in your heart I'm a very good girl :P blek...

Sometime... You a bit scary... Cos... You know what I'm thinking of (of course la, I'm your daughter.. keke)

Wish to do something so that you will feel proud of me :P

Make Up course I

Phew...

Is not an easy step ..... It has few steps to go before can be a beautiful gal :P

Let me roughly introduce my "teacher" to you all.

She is Sharon. She has a very big and shiny eyes.. Thin and tall like those model. Shel looks like 28 years old. The actual age I don't know :P She can speak Chinese and English.

She has 3 students today.. Me, Ky and Bj ... 3 of us are make up idiot.. Before taking this course, we just put on some "color" on our face before attending any dinner.. Provided got color on our face, then we will call it as "sucessful / fully " make up...

Keke.. Today, we ONLY knew it is totally WRONG!!! The teacher nearly faint when we told her about this :P

Firstly, she told us about the basic foundation....

There is many types of foundation. It depends on the types of skin you have. Is it oily, dry OR fair?

For oily skin, it is not suitable using the loose powder.
Why? Loose power will course your face looking oily and smudge...

For dry skin, it is not suitable using the compact powder.
Why? It will increase the dryness of the skin and it might course wrinkle as well.

To be continue...

Raining day.

Phew.. suddenly raining... Its quite heavy.. a bit cold... :P

Should be good for me.. Not sure how long i din get a sweet sweet dream and sleep tide... Tomorrow Sunday d, a bit nervous.. Not yet ready all the required report.. analysis.. and so on..

How???

Tomorrow will be another busy day.. Need to attend makeup course .. Hope that I can learn a lotss there and share those make up tips with you all...

Sweet dream everyone!!

Meeting..

Call for meeting... I know nothing...

My goodness...

I have to brush up my skill as soon as possible before I'm being fired or looking down by others... God, please.. please give me some power... OR please send someone to secure me!!!

Should be long holidays for me.. BUT, I need to study... do this and that to improve... prepare reports and so on...my holiday just become study 'days'....

Add oil man...

Searching for a stolen MacBook

My friend MacBook was stolen last night (28 April 09) at Hongkie restaurant (E-gate, Penang)

Here is the detail:

White, Part no. MB061ZP/A , Serial no. W8730S60YA2

Any info leading to the missing MacBook will be rewarded. Owner contact: 0124898368

Thanks a lot..

Insomnia....

Insomnia....

I have a sleepless night... my brain keep on functioning... my mouth keep on open.. my eyes.. full with tears... Is sign that I'm very tired and wanna sleep... BUT.. dono why.. just turn here n there... not able to sleep.. I just close my eyes.. and rest... when I feel I'm starting fall to sleep.. "ring.... ring..." Too bad, is alarm clock wake me up!!.. Say good bye to my lovely bed, bear bear, n baby.....then bath.. and get ready to work...

This morning, I'm very blur... drive with closing eyes... walk without spirit.... I got a panda eyes due to last night insomnia..... faint....

Once reach office.. starting busy with my work... lazyworm, sleeping worm.. suddenly looking for me... ishhh... too bad.. I have drank OldTown white coffice.. hope it cures.. but seems like it is not working.....the lazyworm too strong d...

Trying chewing gum, sour plum... haih.. worst...made me feel hungry.. my godness.

Fortunately can tahan till 5pm.. writing report go back.. bloging.. reading my friend's blog.. and now.. time to say good night to my all dear friends...

I need rest...

Thanks for your support.. I feel better right now.. Tommorow will be another better day!

Cheers..

Y me!!

Y me!! I don't know....

I'm a bit sad.. no mood...under low bat condition... Headache with the result from upper management...Suddenly feel like lack of confidence, competence...

By right, it should be a good n a great news for me... Everyone likes to get recognition from superior.. YES, me as well... But seems that everything so sudden. I'm not yet ready to accept such precious recognition.

I'm starting worry, scared and don't know what to do... nervous...

BUT, i will try my best to perform n handle well...

Let me control the situation and environment instead of being controlled.

Come on man!

Wh@ u R?? (Part II)

If you are a Dog : A very loyal and sweet person.Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Mouse : Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Lion: Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved,and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

If you are a Cat : An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You lov exploring various things and going into depth of each
thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Turtle : You are near to perfect and nice at heart.The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people.You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

If you are a Dove : You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected.In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Panther : You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with
your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

Wh@ u R?? (Part I)

January 01 - 09 ~ Dog
January 10 - 24 ~ Mouse
January 25 - 31 ~ Lion

February 01 - 05 ~ Cat
February 06 - 14 ~ Dove
February 15 - 21 ~ Turtle
February 22 - 28 ~ Panther

March 01 - 12 ~ Monkey
March 13 - 15 ~ Lion
March 16 - 23 ~ Mouse
March 24 - 31 ~ Cat

April 01 - 03 ~ Dog
April 04 - 14 ~ Panther
April 15 - 26 ~ Mouse
April 27 - 30 ~ Turtle

May 01 - 13 ~ Monkey
May 14 - 21 ~ Dove
May 22 - 31 ~ Lion

June 01 - 03 ~ Mouse
June 04 - 14 ~ Turtle
June 15 - 20 ~ Dog
June 21 - 24 ~ Monkey
June 25 - 30 ~ Cat

July 01 - 09 ~ Mouse
July 10 - 15 ~ Dog
July 16 - 26 ~ Dove
July 27 - 31 ~ Cat

August 01 - 15 ~ Monkey
August 16 - 25 ~ Mouse
August 26 - 31 ~ Turtle

September 01 - 14 ~ Dove
September 15 - 27 ~ Cat
September 28 - 30 ~ Dog

October 01 - 15 ~ Monkey
October 16 - 27 ~ Turtle
October 28 - 31 ~ Panther

November 01 - 16 ~ Lion
November 17 - 30 ~ Cat

December 01 - 16 ~ Dog
December 17 - 25 ~ Monkey
December 26 - 31 ~ Dove

So painful...

my goodness! So painful.. arghhhh.....

Can't sleep since 3am this morning... very painful.. it attack me whole nite whole morning.....
No matter how I'm change the sleep position.. it still very painful... What's going on??

Must be last night, I have drank "ambra sui bui". Is kind of fruit juice with sour plum... very yummy and feel more appetite after drank it...

Nah, nows the result... stomachache d lo... my goodness... Din has this kind of experience before, even period, not that worst too....

Fortunately, after drank some hot water and "chinese medicine - a powder, abit spicy powder :( " Now, recover d...

But, I have miss a chance follow my gang to Wang Kelian, somewhere at Perlis.. Cry Cry.... Too bad!

S@turday nIt3

Finally... comes to weekend!

What can i do? ? ?

Sleeping??
Dreaming???
House keeping??
Shopping???
or????? Clubbing???

kekeke

Just chat with my colleague.. Just knew that he likes 'lalamui'.. my god... he said he alr 'shang sheng' liao wor... who knows :P

Haha.. but he actually is a good boy.. little kid.. Just cant imagine he likes 'lalamui' nia...*faint*

All d best, gina!

I love u doggie..

Yes, i love u doggie...

I dono how to express my love to u! It is highest than the mountain and deepest than the sea...

I can't forget the moment that we watch movie together, we eat together... we care each other... we tease each other... and d true love, hug, kisses between us..

I miss u everyday.. every hours.. every mins... every second....

I wish to share all my things with u.. no matter is happiness OR sadness...

I hope that you'll be with me when I need u....

It all in my dreams...

I have to back to this reality world!!

I have to accept the cruel result.. u alr have a master who take care of u...

Please, please come back home when ur master don't want u...

I'm always welcome u, my dear doggie..

Ur dog foods, born born... everyday is ready there... just waiting for u!

Mamak vs MPPP

phew.. never saw it before.....

what has happened last night?

As usual, we have badminton on every Friday night. After badminton we will go to mamak having supper as usual :P Total four of us, sit inside the mamak stall... order drinks and maggie goreng (not yummy anymore, sad sad. I also dono y)...

We all chatting and teasing each other all the while... Suddenly, i saw a lorry with written words "MPPP" stop infrom of the mamak.. few indian guys move all the table n chairs on the road side.... 'hoi!!! hoi!!!' shouted by the waiters... all the waiters trying to 'grab back' as much as chairs and tables that they arrange it road side... fortunately during that there is no customer sitting there.. Can't imagine if customers are having supper there, and those MPPP indian guy just grab the table and chair away... will cause the fight started?

I was thinking what going on???? Until my fren explain to me that... MPPP will fine those mamak stalls or any stalls who put their table and chairs on the road side.. This is against the R&R...

Phew.. first time experience it.. shock shock.... fortunately not fighthig ~~

How to bake pandan cake??

I still remember I learn to bake pandan cake when I'm 15 years old.

My aunt prepared all the ingredients and brought it to my house. We used about 2 hours to bake a yummy pandan cake :P I just stand beside her and looking how she prepare it and bake it :P It "looks" easy to bake.. just simple few steps :P

Well, when I start baking it without aunty beside me.. ermmm.. the cake... totally different from the one baking by my aunty. Overbake is one of the problem... and... erm... the bake seems like "lack of baking powder".. so it looks flat... not "expand" enough... so.... its taste really bad :( :(

End up need to call up my aunty and ask for details....

hihi.. NOW, I'm alr expert in baking pandan cake... wanna know the secret?

Here to go....

Ingredients :
1 bowl of plan flour
1 bowl of egg white (please separate egg yoks and egg white accordingly)
1 bowl of sugar (if u do not want to made it so sweet, will suggest 3/4 bowl of sugar will do)
4 spoons of cooking oil

(A) Prepare pandan juice / orange juice / nescafe(I have tried b4, d taste not bad)
*** Depends on which flavour you like

(B) Mix cooking oil with egg yolks. Stir for 2 mins. Add in (A)

- Stir sugar with egg white for about 20 mins.
- Add in (B)
- Lastly, add in the plain flour.
- Bake under 150'c for 30 mins
- Mission complete.

Yeah, easy right!!

You may have a try :P

Oops...

Oops...

I don't have enough money to buy a hosting which only for bloging purpose :P

Wish to become a famous blogger.. nyak nyak.. not sure got chance or not... But at least I have took a first step ---- create a blog at blogspot.com...

There is Chinese phrase "success begin with first step".. Yes, I do it...

Smell of success just close to me... yippy :P